Sunday, June 30, 2013

BodyLOVE Summer Challenge

I am noticing an unfortunate trend.  The more I eat, the guiltier I feel.  The more guilt I feel, the more I want to eat. Bad loop.  Hard to break out of. I have been shaming myself quite a lot lately. My mood is strongly dependent on the number on the scale. If it goes down, I feel proud and happy, but if it goes up a bit, I instantly start judging every food decision I made throughout the week and get down on myself for not exercising more.

It is important for me to pay attention to what I eat and to exercise regularly, but this shame spiral does not help.  I want to focus more on making positive choices and less on losing weight.  I want to continue feeling the pride in myself for becoming healthier without feeling ashamed of the less healthy things I choose to do. I can't be perfect and I want to be more accepting of that.

Because of this, I am going to take the BodyLOVE Summer Challenge.

The part that makes me the most nervous is Step #1: Get rid of the scale. On WW, I am supposed to check my weight 1x/week, but I tend to check it about 3-4x/week.  This is more than a habit at this point. It is an obsession.  Putting away the scale seems impossible, but I am going to give it a shot.  I don't believe that checking my weight is a bad thing at all, but the fact that the number can sometimes feel more important than the any healthy choice I made during the week is absurd.  I am not going to give up paying attention to the scale forever because it can be motivating and can be a helpful tool to track changes.  But I am going to give the scale a rest.  Besides, I'll check it at the end of the month and will hopefully feel better about the progress.

How often do you find yourself checking your weight? 
Does the number on the scale impact your mood, regardless of the healthy decisions you made during the week? 


  1. I used to be such a slave to the scale. Now I weigh myself once in a while for a reality check, but I ask myself why I am choosing a certain day to step on the scale. Have I been eating crappy and want to see if I'm getting away with it? Am I hungry and looking for "permission" to eat? If that's where my head is, I try to stay off the scale f

  2. That's a beautiful way to make the decision. That's exactly what I hope to achieve.

  3. I used to weigh myself regularly and sometimes I'd get down on myself because of the number staring back at me, but then I realized it's NOT about the number. It's about me and what makes me happy and how I feel. Needless to say, I stopped weighing myself on such a regular basis.

    1. Glad to hear this way of thinking can be achieved! I'm only on day 3 of no scale (and it's my usual weigh-in day for WW) and I keep passing the scale at working and having to remind myself to stay away. So far so good, but it's amazing to me how much willpower it is taking to do something so simple.