I am struggling so much right now with trying to get back on track. My weight has continued to crawl back up (thankfully not horribly fast, and I am still down quite a lot). I am back doing Weight Watchers, despite my disliking of the program in general because I just cannot trust myself to be aware of what I am eating without being accountable to someone or something. I have been back on technically for 2 months, but I have not been tracking very much because I keep eating out and it is so hard to track. Then I think very unhelpful thoughts like, "If I can't track it, I might as well eat whatever I want."
I still want this year to be about health and well-being. I haven't given up. I am just struggling.
I am so impatient when it comes to running. I love the feeling that I get from running. I'm more energized, I'm proud of myself, I'm happy and relaxed. I want that. Everyday. I can't figure out how to know if I am physically ready. I hope hope hope that I can get that feeling back.
